脱感作 mv (work in progress)

imma try to start dividing descs into 3 sections: pre-animation (what im going for, what i plan to make this as, etc), "mid process" (complaining bout the process), and "ay im done" (self explanatory amirite) for the sake of clearer descriptions

pre-animation
--------------------------------------------------------------------------after reading the lyrics of 3 other songs on the album i oficially relate to the whole album
orig title was きもちわるい
that wasnt related to evangelion btw
i kinda wanna make this both a positive and negative vent bc feelings r big a-- im sorry i cant say that anymore if someone reports this i wont be able to repost it bc scratch wont detect the a word. its big not good.
BTW i consider my content to be 13+ bc of my swearing; and also i write my ocs based off of anxiety-- and theres a 90% chance i have an anxiety disorder so its gonna be b a d.

anyway the title explains the negative vent part-- 脱感作 means "desensitization" in both japanese and chinese correct me if im wrong. positive part is i came out to my sis AND one of my closest irl friends and turns out theyre both supportive and will agree to try to use my pronouns (he/they/xem)!
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mid-process
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I think I should use this to introduce my new ocs but it’s still venting hehehe
k plz dont worry bout me. honestly i am ok, at least more than before. im managing my crap a lot better than i used to which is progress!! :)