What Does a Bipolar Depressive Episode Feel Like?

I go in cycles of depression where I can't concentrate on work and am full of anxiety and obsessed over what I am depressed about at the moment and spend all day on the verge of either tears or just giving up and going home for the day. And the sadness is just unbearable. It will be sadness, guilt, feeling inadequate over whatever, seeing no light at the end of the tunnel for anything, etc. I'll be irritable and withdrawn. It's a terrible living hell. And I'll be like that for hours, days, or weeks at a time. And then I'll turn back into funny, goofy, lovable, wise-guy Timmy again... until next time.

I suffer from Chronic depression and people just don't understand the psychological pain during a depressive episode. It's terrible.

I love your rule of not beating yourself up and allowing yourself to "give in" to the depression for at least three days! Depression feels horrible enough without the self imposed guilt, which only serves to make it that much harder to come out of the depressive episode. Great idea. Thanks so much.

I would cry all time for no reason!

i’ve recently been diagnosed with bipolar depression type 2 and it feels like my whole world is upside down. i’m currently sobbing on the kitchen floor while searching the internet for anything that can help me feel better. i don’t understand why i feel the way i do. i feel like i can’t grasp reality sometimes like i’m a lost dog all the time. i see a psychologist regularly but i still feel so alone and lost.

I suffer from severe depression , or bipolar depression as my psychiatrist says , and it's terrible . I've been depressed for most of my life and it sucks . I feel super unmotivated , sensitive to the slightest things , irritable , suicidal , and just hopeless . It last for weeks as a time , and I never understand it .

Glad you pulled out of that, Hannah. For me, the worst part of a depressive episode is the fear that it won't end and I'll sink back into what happened before. I have a better doctor now, so that's one thing in my favor.

I’ve been diagnosed with this and it seems like everyday it’s an episode my moods change so quick. I cry a lot , my patience is thin, I’m irritable, I’m just a mess.

Thanks Hannah. The little, tiny steps are definitely important.

Some people need to be with other people to be well, others rather be alone, like myself. I can see how your passion can lead to stressful and painful moments. As well as the feedback you receive, and you give the best, no nonsense, advice for mental health. Depression will happen, like the sunrise. I will assume you enjoy quotes. I have one for you. To show how you have made a constructive positive impression on me. I now have the ability to move forward with my own goals. “Blog feel small? If you have just one reader, and your blog changes their life, you're blog is big enough”. -Darren Rowse Your blog and inspiration has given me the strength to change my life. Remember this when you're down and out... on your patio, feeling the grip of negative thoughts race around in your mind. There is always another answer than the negative reality you find yourself in. The sun will soon set, then it's a new day! Kelly

Thank you Hannah: I'm going through the depression now and I feel it will never end. I've been through this😢many times

Hannah, you've been a tremendous help for me, you don't know! Sharing your honest thoughts and emotions about living with bipolar, I had so many insights while watching your videos, you made me accept my depressive episodes instead of hating those. Grateful from the whole heart! I even decided to start my own channel to share my thoughts with the world, and who knows, maybe I'll be someone's inspiration and safe place.

it definitely sucks! I have to distance myself from my family during those times because I don't want to push then away or make them feel bad, because that always just makes me feel worse! I just kind of have to ride it out, and I'm thankful to have friends that understand what its like. We are there for each other, even when it gets ugly.

Love to you Hanna. Depression sucks! Hope the sun comes out soon. Meantime be good to you. I'm so glad you do these honest open videos

I always feel like my family kind of make me worse, don't understand why they expect help from me most of the time, i get down , where i just have to sleep in the day too

depressive really is scary, also because of how indepth it feels. it seriously feels like your entire world turned upside down. like as if your brain just took your hand, said goodbye to the present and onward to a whole nother perspective reality, of dark, sadness and depth. Emotionally it can feel umbareable and torturous at times. it becomes really hard to ground yourself. you feel so lost and confused most times, it really does make you ponder on what reality is when being yourself is so out of your own control. ～this how i feel, i know it is differant for others. Stay strong loves.

Thank you so much for opening up. I've been looking for someone who gets its when the depression hits and finding your video was a sense of relief. For the first time since being diagnosed I feel "normal" about myself. Thank you Hannah.

Sending lots of love to YOU and your family 🫶❤❤. You are one very Courageous, strong, just mighty soul to be to have turned and still are trying to turn this dark situation around to help those struggling with BD and even their caregivers by shining a light on this particular condition. A brave individual you are! Thank you so much for sharing these videos🙏🙏🙏 God sure is with You ❤ Please continue to be strong because you are more than special, there's a light only you can shine and the world will not be the same, will never be the same because you came along and made a difference and still are through just making that choice to channel all the negatives thrown at you Into something good as you try to fight, manage and control this disorder! Hats off to you!🙇🙇 Sending Love to you all the way from the island nation of PNG🫶❤️🇵🇬

I hate bipolar, episodes, because I didn't like be out of control of mind or body! it seems like I was always in fog, never in the right monment with friends,and voice would always come for me, I be with there min and space out the next. Sometimes I couldn't do my daily activities! Jaime

you look beautiful and I totally understand what you go through! I appreciate the advice about your 5day rule, bc that will really help me with keeping my moods on track and not wasting away for 5-6 weeks on the couch. Thanks so much for all you do.Sarah