why you need to live for yourself and not for others | journal entry ep. 5

i’m so serious when i tell u that ur vids are SO relatable, for real, i feel so heard and understood, love u so much <3

As a 31 yr old Filipina, born and raised with Asian parents, I want you to know that I feel you. I really felt your sentiments. I became a nurse and work as a nurse for more than a decade now just to please my whole family. I love art. My only dream in life is to draw draw draw.. but everyone in the family is a nurse. 2 yes ago was diagnosed with thyroid cancer stage 1, just then I realized I want to live for myself. I'm just done with nursing. Life is short Imma live it well.

I started tearing up at the same time when you started explaining how nobody asked or cared about what you wanted. It’s so sad to think for how long someone can neglect their wants to a point where they feel like they can’t even think for themselves. I want to hug my younger self as well (.づ◡﹏◡)づ.

This whole series has been emotional for me so far because I can relate so much to this. I'm currently 27 and I'm in this stage in my life right now. It's been a long journey of self-doubt and worrying about my future and having to live on this road of perfection because of the eyes that were upon the younger me. Restricting most of my dreams because of the fear of failure and not living up to the expectations of others. I do wish I could go back and give my younger self the biggest hug because honestly, she was so harsh on herself and stressed the fuck out. But now, I've started living for myself and finding my identity and now I've started taking tiny steps into my bigger ones and I feel a little more happier. It's still a long journey but so far, I'm happy to be taking the necessary steps to live and show up for myself.❤

"you can do things scared" ,, this was so eye-opening because i realized i only do things that i am more confident in where i am not scared or less scared but its not always what i want to do

"talent can get you far, but hard work can get you farther" SO TRUEEE my bff is the most talented artist i've ever seen, yet she failed her art class. why? because she didn't put a single ounce of effort into her work, never showed up for herself and procrastinated, meanwhile those who weren't nearly as good got As and Bs because of their consistent hard work. that truly showed me the power of resilience!! chase your dream people, you can do it <3333

I am 28 and I am going back to school to get the degree that I wanted and I am loving it 🥹🥹 go for it 🤍 go for fashion school if you want, its still so early especially at 22. Rooting for you!

It just hit me when u said "You'll only live once". People always says that & I really never cared. But when you said "I'm 22 now & I'll never be 18 or 19 again" THAT'S when it hit me. Cuz I'm 24 now and I lived for others up until now. And when am I gonna live for myself? And what if I'm unfortunate and die young? So I'll never lived for myself? Via, thank you for making this video. Thanks for talking some sense to me ❤

As someone who has struggled with their self-esteem and is in their last year of high school, your videos have helped me so much. It's so scary that life is so unpredictable, and I don't know what to do with it, honestly I will try to just do what feels right :)) Thank you for your videos. They're really calming and helpful, really

Honestly, I find myself the opposite; nobody is pressuring me to lead a certain life, but I find that the issue. I search for people to tell me what to do, and find it easier to follow what they think is best, as if that’s better than my own judgement because I’m not sure what I want and I’m afraid of making those mistakes (which indefinitely come). Anyway thanks for the great video ❤❤

Thank you for this, yesterday was supposedly high school prom and I didn’t go (as a senior) - part of me felt that I was missing a keystone moment of high school, reflecting on my lack of fulfilling relationships, and now seeing your video I realize that I have simply been latching so tightly onto the fabricated traditions of high school imposed upon us by someone else. I’m learning to find comfort in my own definition of happiness which ultimately does not rely on these traditions, holidays, or whatever you want to call them. I’m spite of what other people say I should do.

Thank you so, so, much. I’m 16 years old, and I’m too scared to do anything for myself. I feel as if I step one foot outside my house, I’m going to get shot or sexually assaulted, because that’s the mindset my Haitian parents put onto me. I understand that they care, but I have absolutely no sense of independence because they’ve always kept me sheltered. Whenever I try to do something by myself it almost always turns out horrible. I don’t trust myself, because I’m afraid of making mistakes and looking stupid. However, this video helped me realize that I am capable of doing things, I just have to stop blaming myself for everything that goes mildly wrong. Yes I’m scared, and yes I don’t have a set idea on what I want to do in my life, but I’m glad that I’m aware of the interests I have and that I have people out there who’ll support me in what I do. I want to rebrand my YouTube channel, I want to create my own animated TV show, I want to go into voice acting, I want to draw more, I want to write more, there’s so much I want to do in my life. I’m starting off slow by deleting all of my social media (except for YouTube and Discord), and hopefully I’ll become more productive and strive for the things I so desperately want to accomplish.

i'm starting to feel that living for other people's acceptance and attention is going to make us invisible & I don't wanna be invisible in the only life that i am sure of. i'd rather "fail" whilst being myself than "win" living solely for others

I’m 33 and I feel like half of my life has passed me by just from pleasing other people. I wanted to go to art/fashion school after high school, but everyone put pressure on me to become the first doctor in the family. When I tell y’all I burnt out the first month of freshman year! My grades first quarter of biology major was so bad that I got SUPER depressed, moved back home, and settled for another school in my hometown (bad idea). I switched my major again before junior year and (barely) graduated with a bachelor of arts and I felt great about it, but I was still depressed + anxious from the pressure put on by my parents and myself to find a great job. That never happened and to this day I’m working a job I’m not thrilled about, but I need it to pay off my debt. With each passing day I feel my true Self emerging and I’m tired of pushing Her down, tired of ignoring that She’s there. I’m not a doctor (and after working where I’m currently working I don’t want to be one anymore), never will be one. I am Me and no job, accolades, etc. can define that.

“Do it scared, but keep going” So true. You’re never gonna feel perfect and be in the exact right moment to do something, but you just gotta do it

Something clicked for me when you said “what about consequences? So what if there are consequences?” . I can always learn and move on 💗

i am not even lying, it just makes me cry because i can relate to her so much. she isn't only my comfort youtuber but also my comfort person from afar. everytime i feel anxious or have that bad feeling of being isolated/not having friends/social issues etc etc, her videos are really warmth to my soul<3 i literally love her so much.❤please never stop posting😭😭 also! CONGRATULATIONS ON GRADUATING<33

7:09 this hit me. tbh this entire video hit me. the most fucked up thing about this entire feeling is that “we” (everyone going through these struggles) know what to do but it’s the action itself that is so daunting. as i’m approaching 22 i’ve been trying to incorporate this mindset into my daily life but like you said. you have to be consistent. and that’s something i feel like i’ve been failing at lately. falling back into what’s “comfortable” but ultimately not what makes ME feel good. so, thanks for the reminder. it’s exactly what i needed to hear rn. and to everyone else feeling lost and scared i’m supporting you from afar. you’ve got this. ❤

IF I SAY IM CRYING NO ONE BELIEVE ME THANK YOU VIA FOR YOUR WORDS. FR ITS MEANS ALOT FOR ME CURRENTLY I ALMOST GIVE UP ON MY DREAM AND FOLLOWING WHAT MY NEAR PERSONS SAIED TO ME. GIRL I WILL STAND FOR MY SELF UNTIL VERY VERY END FROM NOW ON. LOVE VIA AND THANKYOU SO MUCH

Why did i find you so late I found a week ago and already in love with your episodes I'm still 17 but feels like I need to financially independent already Finding ways to keep me happy in my depressive era from past 2 years Finally gonna move out of my house which doesn't even feel like home after my dad's death I found people like you on yt to keep me going Thankyou