Amen - Complete Crookedstar Multi Animator Project

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Published 2022-06-28
CW: Grief, Suicidality

After four years, its time to publish this project. It’s been great to work with so many people on this project, those who stayed through the whole time, those who joined and had to drop and those who came in to help get us across the finish line. Some of these parts were created back in 2018, I’m so glad we finally get to present them. I am proud of what we were able to create, and it wouldn’t have been possible without every contribution.

Amen was conceptualized as a character study for Crookedstar, in particular his relationship with his faith, and with grief. The script and final presentation of this project, while compatible with canon material, is not perfectly accurate to canon. Instead the challenge I proposed with this song was to depict an emotionally compelling retelling of his story, with the purpose of capturing the complexity of his grief and the tragedy of loss.

Part 1: Sagutoyas youtube.com/c/Sagutoyas
Part 2: BosleyBoz    / @bosleyboz  
Part 3: Sugar Thief    / @sugarthief5525  
Part 4: Ashtrall youtube.com/c/ashtrall
& Shelly Key    / @-shelly-  
Part5a: Froskura    / @froskura5190  
Part 5b: Amelia Bothe    / @ameliab7626  
Part 6: Tybaxel youtube.com/c/Tybaxel
Part 7: MidnightThunder youtube.com/c/MidnightThunder
Part 8: Zachybutt    / @zachybutt  
Part 9: Zephyrims    / @zephyrims  
Part 10: Mayartimations    / @mayartimations  
& Churimp    / @churimp6187  
Part 11: IndigoSplash    / @indigo_splash  
Part 12: Ursiday youtube.com/c/ursiday
Part 13: Koerenn youtube.com/c/Koerenn
Part 14: SEGAmastergirl youtube.com/c/SEGAmastergirl
Part 15: AlexHarrier youtube.com/c/AlexHarrier
Part 16: Selket youtube.com/c/Selket
& Jaystarz youtube.com/c/xJaystarzx
Part 17: NightsAlone youtube.com/c/NightsAlone
Part 18: Koheina    / @merryald  
& alex
Part 19: CranberryTheCat    / @cranberrythecat4555  
Part 20: ThePheonixPearl    / @thephoenixpearl  
Part 21: Kimi Cook youtube.com/user/kpcroxful

Gee kindly painted a beautiful thumbnail for the project, you can see it on her twitter here: twitter.com/Gee_lly/status/1538311410739986439

Spoilers for Crookedstar’s Promise following:
For those not familiar Crookedstar, or Crookedjaw, was born Stormkit, and in an accident breaks his jaw resulting in a lifelong disability, for which his mother cruelly renames him Crookedkit as a punishment. He is visited by a cat in his dreams named Mapleshade who promises him that he can become leader, if he will sacrifice everything else. He endures a great deal of loss, his father, mother, leader, wife and two daughters at birth, and eventually his brother and his third daughter in her childbirth, all seemingly in events beyond his control and at times seemingly because of his actions. Eventually he learns the cat who promised him leadership was not from Starclan at all, but a vengeful spirit who tried to break his heart with a lie to separate himself emotionally from those close to him, as punishment for something his ancestors did generations ago. He breaks ties with Mapleshade and has to learn to become close with those he has left and to reconcile with the grief he has for those he has lost.

This project follows his experiences starting with his appointment as deputy, and with the death of his father. He begins to experience a spiritual search within himself, whether the stories he was taught as a child are true, whether he is making the right choices in life, whether the ambitions he has are worth the bargain he has made. When his mate Willowbreeze falls ill after the birth of their kits his faith reaches a crisis point, and in desperate emotion he runs from camp to demand from the stars if his suffering is enough. Grief takes over his life for a time, until he recognizes his surviving daughter needs her father.

Amen was written by Joe Keogh, (vocalist of UK indie rock band, Amber Run) to commemorate his grandfather’s passing. “I wrote this song as the eulogy I wish I’d read for him about how I really felt.”

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All Comments (21)
  • @teaz3139
    Fun fact: in the German version, Crookedjaw is renamed Stripedstar at his leader ceremony by Shellheart, who says his old name caused him enough grief.
  • @ROTPARTY
    The ending where Silverstreams spirit appeared and brought a grieving Greystripe with his kits broke me. I feel so bad for all of them.
  • @ameliab7626
    So so so beautiful and that ending sequence is just flooring
  • @teaz3139
    Another fun fact! Ever noticed how Stormkit, Silverstream's son, has the same name as Crookedstar originally had? I don't think that's a coincidence.
  • @helios6521
    3:55 The way you can see graystripe hopping across the rocks before his big appearance! It's timed so well!!
  • I love how in the credits scene it looks like Silverstream says “hey dad”
  • @ozzit4194
    Y'all did real, real good. Its.....extremely difficult to properly portray the feeling of 'all my friends and family are dead, why am i NOT?' Survivors guilt is screwed sideways, and Crookedstar is an amazing representation of that, especially when amazing hosts and artists get ahold of him and show us the talent this community never runs out of. Thanks cat nerds.
  • @Koerenn
    oh my god the result of this MAP is so emotional and a masterpiece, I was eating and now there is tears on my potatoes...the credit scene is incredible I got chills when Oakheart appears, then when graystripe arrives the feels are so strong wow The thumbnail is also amazing, the meaning of the maple leaves is so powerful. Thank you so much for accepting me in the MAP I feel so honored ;w;
  • @panthera9151
    People praise the ending sequence (and rightfully so) but for me it is at 2:53 when the feels hit. Crookedstar is at his lowest in this moment, feeling the weight of his pain, of his loss, seemingly unable to find hope. That is until Silverkit notices him, and even though she's too young to understand the extent of his despair she knows that he's sad, and offers him comfort. Up until this point he saw her as an extention of his dead mate, but when he looks down and sees the love in her eyes when she looks at him, he finally feels happy again; he feels as if there's some more hope left after all. And in my opinion, this scene makes the ending sequence even more impactful.
  • The fact that you can see Silverstream saying "Daddy?" when she calls to him in the credits is heart wrenching
  • @catsonbrooms
    when silverkit came up to crookedstar at the stream and nuzzled up against him I broke down crying. oh my god. every artist did SO well building up to that moment. it goes from this heart-wrenching hopelessness at all the loss he's gone through, to the realization that he still has people to live for. there is so much raw emotion there. amazing work to everyone who participated <3
  • @missoli
    2:42 gave me chills. His frustration and grief just pours out of him
  • @twink_ing
    OOOOOHUUUUGHHH, the grief and emotion captured in this is absolutely stunning!!!!! crookedstar is my absolute FAVORITE cat, his strength and ability to retain his empathy and humility after everything he went through is so incredible. GOD, AND THAT END!!!!! all of his loved ones gathering, and silverstream meeting him one last time to bring greystripe and the kits BROKE me. well done to everyone that was apart of this, and thank you for bringing together so many amazing artists to create this.
  • @monstera246
    2:52 This was my favorite part. You can just tell that Crookedstar tries to hide his feelings from his Clanmates, as he feels responsible for them. Now that he's alone, all his frustration and grief just come pouring out. Plus, the background just really adds to it.
  • I want to discuss how this project covers subtlety. A lot of pitfalls I see works fall into are the lack of it, that you need to show the bodies or the characters dying directly to leave an impact. While there is some of this here, most of it is subtle, raw emotion and expressions on display. My favorite parts have to be near the end. Crookedstar looking off while Silverstream leaves the clan, scared but uncertain, sent chills down my spine. The credits scene too.. gosh… just had me tear up from the pure raw emotion that Silverstream leading Greystripe through the reeds had. Excellent, phenomenal work. I couldn’t have asked for more from a project about a loving father’s grief. ❤️
  • You can see Graystripe in the behind qhen Silvestream appears 😭😭 the detail of that ending What most I love about this MAP it's is about Crookedstar and his grief but not his abuse. Is so fresh and calm to finally see something of him, can enjoying a map of his life withoutt seeing how his mother or Mapleshade mistreat him. One of the best 2022 maps, without a doubt
  • When Willowbreeze was dragged away from Crookedstar, dude my heart shattered. After 4 long years, well done everyone!
  • @CatMage1014
    I was watching this again and had a painful realization at the end. @3:09, when Silverstream walks off, Crookedstar didn't know it but that would be the last time he ever saw his daughter. It hit me on my second watching but now, on my third watch, it's making me so incredibly sad This video was amazing, all the years waiting for it to come out were 100% worth it!
  • @Hawkkz
    There's something so surreal about watching all of these beautiful parts come together after all this time. I've only been following this project for a couple of years myself, but it was wholeheartedly worth it. All the talent and dedication that went into creating this is obvious. Everything down to the credits is just absolutely phenomenal. And, to be completely honest, it even got me to tear up a little. Amen.