My Attempted Suicide - Sharing my Story for Suicide Prevention Month

The judgement that suicide is selfish is a cruel misunderstanding of the disease by people who have never experienced it. I hope you continue to get better!

Depression is an absolutely horrific experience, i wouldn't wish it on anyone. I loved listening to yoyr story. It helps to know im not alone 🤗

I understand why people end it, I am on the edge

The whole “Be strong” stigma is so f*ck3d up! Sometimes maybe more times than most you feel so weak. That alone can drive you to wanting to end it all.

I wish wish wish my daughter had seen this video before she took her own life. Alas she didn’t, but I did and it’s made me cry and make me really listen, her death caused mine… I feel like I’m dying. I’m not wanting to take my own life, but I hate I couldn’t help her and stop her.. I literally feel like I’m only still going for others. My daughter was strong and brave and she’s gone.

Having suicidal thoughts/depression/anxiety/any mental health condition is like being behind a glass door and everyone else is on the other side. It's shit and I really feel for everyone who's struggling with their mental health. Actually for me the thing that upsets me the most isn't having a mental health condition it's the isolation, guilt(shame) and just generally(for me in my experience) feeling like I shouldn't reach out or that I'm not allowed to call a helpline(despite recieving therapy/mental health support) because I need to be strong and deal with my mental health on my own no matter how low I feel. I feel incredibly isolated and I don't know what to do

I identify with almost that exact same kind of self hatred a lot rn in my life. Struggling with suicidal thoughts and came across this video and it made me feel seen. Thank you for sharing this.

I was there yesterday. I took all the pills I could find and was holding a bottle of more sleeping pills when my friend Dane asked to call me because I wrote goodbye on all my socials. I was ready to be gone because of so many things and it all overwhelmed me yesterday. I felt like a terrible human and that the world would be better off without me. And the people I loved would be better off without me because they all hated me. That’s what I told myself. I’ve been treated so poorly by people through my life. I blamed myself. Im lucky Dane took the time to talk me out of it.

Can’t thank you enough for sharing your experience. It is unbelievably helpful to know that someone else has felt this way… your honesty is so evident. It just brings a dose of reality to the experience so many people struggle with and can’t talk about.

Thank you so, so much for making this video and sharing your experiences. The way you talked about your mindset at the time is so incredibly true and real. I went through a similar fight when I was 14. I didn't actually attempt suicide, but I was so close. Nearly everything you said when describing how you felt, I felt that, too. I don't think I've ever heard a more vulnerable story. Thank you so much for making this.

Hi Emma. The very fact that you can come on here and talk about this ... even though I can see and hear you struggling so much with the emotions and memories this is bringing back into your life...shows you have an inner strength and spirit to go onward and upward. It took real courage to come on here and tell your story. You are truly baring your soul warts and all for the world to see. In your own words 'you are loved more than you know'. I wish you every future happiness Emma. Hugs and love.

For me it is feeling ugly , poor , no college degree, girlfriend cheated on me and was raped, my grandma died in October. I tried my best to take care of my girlfriend and I feel like it was all for nothing. As if she didn't appreciate the time I had to put in. Waking up at 6:30 am to go to work, get out at 6:30 and then head to the hospital which is 40 mins away. For just a 30 minute visit and then go home which is about her 40 mins.

Wow Emma. You're such an inspiration, truly. As someone who is struggling at the moment with stress, I completely get your comment around how you present to others is not what your reality is at that time. Although I moaned about my situation, I did it in a jokey way and I think I undermined how I was feeling, to the extent where the low really hit hard and took other people by surprise. I feel I'm on my way back up but wow what a journey. As someone on the outside of your life, I would have said you 'had it all' too. Isn't it funny how we perceive the lives of those around us? It takes a lot to speak to someone privately about these things let alone speak publicly and I'm in awe of you right now. Thank you for sharing your experience and helping to normalise mental ill health ❣️

Thus video found in good time. Because it is exactly how you mentioned it...your vision is soo clouded and sometimes i am so fixated on some narrative that, if someone tells me otherwise I would just ruthlessly ignore it or deny it or just say they are mocking me. Even my own positive thoughts are shut down myself when I am in that sort of mindset. Thanq for opening up❤

This is super vulnerable. Thank you for sharing. ❤

Thank you for sharing your story. I’m glad you are still here ❤️

Your soul is lovely. Thank you for sharing of yourself and your journey. You truly are lovely.

Wow. I love your video., It just feels so real and raw and honest and full of care and love and integrity and courage. Thank you xxxx

I wish you nothing but peace, love and happiness, you are not alone in this ❤❤❤

Appreciated hearing your perspective, thanks for speaking.