The Biggest Loss From Opiate Addiction

They also gave me a false sense of accomplishment. I felt like I was taking care of so many task yet at the end of the day, nothing was done.

Man I watch your videos every day. I remember them sleepless nights almost 5 months ago now (I am 5 months clean on the 8th feb) and I watched all your videos to keep me going and keep me motivated through all the pain and suffering I went through, I am feel sad that you aren't here any more, when I was two weeks in and I found out you passed away it made me cry. I know exactly what you are saying too as I'm an emotional person too I'm also autistic too so I find it hard to articulate how I am and because of you I'm clean and my brother and work mates, and my best friend, all because of you guys I did it so thank you, rest in peace, you are still making miracles happen Ryan, God bless your soul ❤💙

My soul is starting to be like, "Dude, I'm back. Let me live." Wow. Silly but powerful if you're an addict that has experienced that.

dude I know you videos are old but I just found them they are still helping me today!! thanks for kepping it real and not holding anything back!!!

Im sorry you’re gone brother, but I still watch your videos cuz they always help me. They remind me why I stopped when I forget...thanks brother and rip.

One dr said to me “your brain was hijacked” that was 10 years ago never forget love u Ryan RIP

This is so accurate iv been clean 1 year 2 months and I'm still trying to find myself again thank u for posting this!!

dude I hear u with the music thing as well as the sneezing thing..lol. and I too stopped listening to music, and started to listen to talk radio...

I miss this man so much.! Thank you again brother for all your dedication.

Excellent!!!♥️ Thank You, Ryan!!! I’m in my Second Year of being Clean, Now!!!😊 There Truly Is A Rainbow 🌈On The Other Side!!!♥️😊

That bit about forgetting how amazing music can be, hits really close to home.

Your ABSOLUTELY right. I'm 60 ? Going through this for 20 years. . I do live with chronic pain. I hate this. It runs my life. Can't do anything without a pill. It makes me feel normal. And i know I'm not. Thank you for doing this.

I’ve listened to nothing but talk radio and podcasts for 2 years. I’m ready to feel

Wow,  I am a musician and it really did take away my love for music.  I want to feel the natural high of music again.

One of your best videos.

The truth in every word you say . Man i go through this so much and hate it . Its just a functional thing now and beat myself up so much and have probably 3 people living in my head and none of them are me. I was so strong at a few points longest stretch was 6 months worked out got huge all with 3 damaged discs in my back but fought it ...then succumbed to the demon and took a few hydros thought WoW im going to go Harder on my workout big mistake..blew my arms out and shoulders. ...went to far ...they took again from me and i fell back into it taking whatever i can to numb the pain but now its my back arms and shoulders..not a even trade...smh im trying again to get my mind back to that quit mode and will...anyone that turns to a workout addict when they quit please dont do what i did . Like you said Its all a lie. The pills took my sense away to rest and not lift crazy weights i didnt feel it when i did it but i sure do now. God bless you Ryan im going to try and get my arms and shoulders fixed and try to get my soul back once again. 4th time in again and i always come back to your videos . i know i can again i just have to fight again its just harder at the moment my father just got on dialsis his kidneys failing to 25 percent. I just pray my mind can get back to that man i was . My mother committed suicide and i believe part of the will she mustered to do it was after she tried the first time she wond up on painkillers and antidepressants from the crash but i believe that it wasnt her that did it. Like you said it posses you to do things youd never do ...idk why i bleed this out in comment section but for anyone that thinks these things wont take from you think again . Im a very thankful person you do these videos and i know this one is old but doesnt change the fact its helpful . Smh i wish i never got into this again everytime it takes and takes im sorry i flooded the section . If anyone reads this and is scratching the surface of toying with these things know this ....I will take you let it and will come back 3 fold when you are at your weakest it doesnt care and your mind will tell you no matter whats going on around you that you need it. Dont ever turn back to it....I was in full on withdrawal at my mothers funeral destroyed with a million emotions and even at a place you would think your safe to grieve its there ruining your thoughts and memories. God Bless all of you souls fighting to get back im with you . Love your families and others and think about if you wanna not be youself when the day comes someone leaves you ..its more painful to know you werent really there and they leave this earth with the person you last presented yourself as not the one they knew. Sorry if i said to much Ryan and hope the best for all of you out there hurting . I had noone to talk to and just kept going ....smh

I get goosebumps over everything now that I'm in sobriety; it feels amazing.

funny u mention the music thing. ive been on opiates for 12 yrs. Every time id go into withdrawl because i didnt have money or nothing was avail, every time id hear music, even stuff id hear every day always sounded so much better. so much more meaningful. Btw im 30hrs clean and will make it! been watching your vids all day. Thx so much for what you do!

I've watched so many of your videos and this one is my favorite. Thanks for being a source of support when I need it.

this is easily one of your greatest messages! dh