S1, EP6: Q&A pt.2

Love this page. I have never seen anything like this. AA and traditional methods don't for for everyone. I love how you address the issues but keep it light.

Guys i need to say it to someone. At the age of 15( got 16 at the hospital) i was involved in a drunk driving motorcycle accident against a car which shows how soon in my life i was already an alcoholic ( started at 11 drinking) and due to this accident, they were obliged to give me dilaudid ( morphine-derivate) and i was the first time i got a dilaudid IV OR IM rush , i was addict. In the accident i broke my femur which was the least of my worry because also my leg got caught between the frame of my scooter and the bumper of the car so that all the skin almost of my left lower leg was torn off , a muscle torn off on the glass of the car with damages to nerves etc. I went under anesthesia so they could make me skin transplant , make 2 muscle out of 1 to replace the one torn off which took more close to 12 hour job if i remember. After that in the traumataulogy department i received injections of dilaudid every 3 hours for a month at the hospital , the time my skin takes. And every injection was bliss pure bliss in my head. After that i had no more pain wish is a miracle of God from my point of view but at 16 years old i wasnt the most mature and already got the opioid kick . So my familly doctor prescribed me Oxycontin up to 40mg but due to my abuse it wasnt enough so i doctor shopped everywhere to have the pills i wanted . I just had to show my leg and the doctor prescribed what i wanted . Oxycontin , lyrica, benzodiazepines etc. At sometime i went to the hospital and told the truth , they called my mother and told her they never saw anyone of my age at such a high dose and they prescribed me 240mg of oxycontin 2 times a day at 16 y. The normal was 10mg-20mg 2 times a day. But i had such a tolerance that it was candy for me but they put me under close surpervision before i got transfered to Methadone after a few years. I lowered my methadone and stopped it too abruptly (not my choice) to erase the withdrawal i got into drinking and started buying on the dark web over the years . Cocaine , ketamine, benzos, heroin( alot) . I took every drug under the sun before i was 25 . Name a drug , i took it . Every type of medication too , name and i took it. Now i am 31 years old , second time on methadone after taking a mix of oxy , fentanyl and heroin for some years . I am now stables but i on the opioids front , i want to lower and to quit but with all the benzos and medication that i take i dont know by what starting . ( i abuse the benzos , thing that i should not) and want to quit but benzo withdrawal is hell . I try to taper off along with the plan of tapering off methadone/medication. I am no partner for a woman, feel alone and depressed, no friends or life worth living( i am not talking suicide) i was a youth full of life and complexed too ) but i have the feeling that that guy is dead at 15 years old at my accident and now i live a shadow a ghost of him ...Also i am starting to see that the trauma of my accident never healed along with the loss of my youth. I need to see a therapist. Thx guys your podcast tell me i am not alone . Love you guys!

We can’t change the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We start being a living Amends going forward by following spiritual principles today.

Good shit yall, keep grinding.

It was such a blessing to US to get to sit in a watch y’all do this podcast. The whole family suffers from this disease of alcoholism & addiction. Thank yall for shedding some light on this to the public. We love yall❤️

P.S. the viloence in huge is this town. Im an epileptic the relates to the feelings of the ppl but how does somebody cope with being stabed, stawked, and beatings for no reason? A girl told me she got stabed in the leg and i helped her but i had a meltdown after. The victim was numb showed nothing , and i was tripping balls ( figuratively)

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