i mourn the present as if it's already a memory.

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Published 2024-05-19
based on a journal entry about how i am slowly coming to terms with nostalgia :)
tbh i wrote this months ago so my feelings keep fluctuating lol and i still often feel like i'm already missing the moment while i'm living in it.
but i keep reminding myself that i should appreciate the present while it's still clear and vibrant, rather than looking back on it as if it's already a memory.


"this too will become the past, and you will mourn it". i will mourn it. but not yet.



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- its not the same- knonzzz
- they are called memories- knonzzz
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All Comments (21)
  • @freddiepixie
    I never thought anyone else felt this way - I was alone until now.
  • @Anyone5555
    the title is SO REAL. whenever im with people i start missing them worrying that im gonna lose them and thats why im detached
  • @lunamita
    There is a word for it , “dès vu: the awareness that this moment will become a memory.”
  • @nadaeen3339
    “because the fact that i will miss it dearly when it all over ,means that it’s much more beautiful now “
  • @NoCommentNo
    I regret that I spent my entire life like this. I lived my entire life thinking about how in the future I will look back at this. I either spent my time reminiscing the past or thinking about my future reminiscing my future. But I can't help it.
  • @pixelzebra8440
    The title describes the exact feeling I’ve been feeling for so long I am in the final two weeks of my 8th grade year. In one week, I will have my final middle school dance. In one week I will have my final Friday as a middle schooler. In two weeks I will be a high schooler, a freshman. In two weeks I will say goodbye to the vast majority of people I feel as though I cannot ever imagine what it would be like if I never met them. I’m two weeks, this chapter of my life will be over, But a new one will begin. Filled with love, laughter, and new memories. I will appreciate these two weeks. As oogway once said, “yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That’s why they call it the present.”
  • @EarthToIndiaa
    I relate to the title so bad i never clicked a video so fast. I cherish my childhood so much I actively try to be present now because I know its all going to fade so fast, I never considered other people do this too
  • @lethologca
    appreciating the present can help take a way the sadness of what is nostalgia; being able remember our experiences is a blessing
  • @lotte3444
    I got chills all over my body from this video. It's like you took out my mind, untangled all the tightest knots there, and put it back.
  • This was recommended at a perfect time because I’ve just graduated high school. It’s been a journey and it’s weird knowing that I’m moving on to college. The title was what had drawn me to this video though and I’ve always thought about how crucial memories are. When I feel nostalgic and revisit old photos and videos on my phone, I start thinking about how I’ll never see the exact version of my younger self again as I’m older. It makes me feel thankful that we captured those moments as well 🤍
  • @ylainiee
    You litterly explained everything I was feeling that I didn't know how to describe.
  • @moyi5631
    i feel this so much. i’ve found myself trying to pull out my camera to record every single good moment i have because i’m scared i’ll lose those memories and never find something better. i always fear that i’m never truly in the moment because i’m already scared that it’s going to end. you have a great perspective, and i hope i can return to living in the moment like you<3
  • @rossijp1971
    Loved this video. I also live by the phrase "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift that's why they call it the present!"
  • @Rishaishere5
    The title is so real... When something happens like hanging out with friends, walking alone while feelings comfortable, bonding with my family, and doing something alone feeling warmth w just myself.. It makes me feel like this things happening right now will just be memories. Memories where ill just miss and wanting to happen again..
  • @bac-yp7br
    the title is what has brought me to this video, ive been struggling with this for a very long time. this video made me cry, i cherish memories a lot so when i realize im in a good moment, i remember the fact that i wont experience it again.
  • @chunnilal2111
    I am 17 while watching this and I am so close to tears. This really captures what I hae been going through these past couple of YEARS. I loved being 14. Then suddenly my life changed, a lots of changes for a young girl and I find myself missing the previous times. The nostalgia and melancholy caught perfectly in this video. And slowly I realized how I wasn't even enjoying the present as much I could have just because of my fears and anxiety for the future and because of how much I miss the past. I have started to move on. It's quite tough for me, teen years have been rough on me but I still want to be a teenager because becoming an adult seems so scary. To my future self, if you are ever reading this, please know that I want you to be happy and independent. Do what your 5 yo self and 14 yo would condone, or maybe me, 17 yo version of you❤I hope you are doing well, see you in the near future. I love you
  • @goodToBeLost
    This is exactly what I have often felt in my own life. I tried putting it in words once because it felt so strange and it was something like 'when I am experiencing a moment of joy in the present , nearly all of me is in the future already - mourning the fact that now it's only a memory and I will never experience it again. These people that I am right now here with, they are gone already. I have lost them forever'. Jesus, what a strange feeling that is. I am glad to know there are others who are familiar with it too. Thank you ❤