I Didn't Know I Was Trans!

Seriously thank you so much. I'm 23, and last month I randomly stumbled onto a FTM timeline video, and then I binge watched videos for a week, and I just knew. I've since started socially transitioning, and sometimes I feel like I am taking it too fast and making other people uncomfortable, but I feel the same way you did. I know who I am and what I want now, and I don't want to wait any longer to be myself.

I just realized at 30, that I might be trans. I'm actually quite sure, but sometimes my brain is just not helpful because I start thinking that it can't be true and that I'm imagining things - which everyone I'm out to, tells me, I'm not...Videos like yours help me a lot to figure things out. So, thank you. :)

I know this video is old but it is exactly what I needed. Im starting my transition at 22

You are exactly like me. I didn't know either. Blind sided my entire family and myself. Thank you for uploading this. I feel better now.

You made this video years ago, but I'm watching it today and kind of sitting in awe. I didn't think it was ok to find out this late (I'm 25). I felt like I lost time for not realizing it, or knowing how to find myself. Maybe I just never lived in that environment. Anyways, you described some of the biggest fears I had, and also some of the same habits that I had. Thank you for posting. [:

I am sixteen now and I recently realised that I was probably trans. I've seen all these videos of guys saying they always knew or guys my age that are already on T or will soon have top surgery and it's nice to see that I'm not the only one who hasn't always knew. Thanks

Yes, I feel ya brother. I share a very similar story. I could connect behaviors to my childhood and little childhood wishes I used to make now-a-days. But once I realized those wishes were never going to happen I just accepted it, I was going to live a life as a female because that's how I was brought into this world and there was nothing I could do about it. So I thought at least lol I was about 20, 21 yrs old when I started practicing meditation, after a really good session of meditating I had this huge urge to just YouTube transgender and I spent the next three days, day and night with breaks of going to work watching these videos and by day three, I'll never forget I finished a video and just bawled and said that's what it is. That's what makes sense, these life's, these changes can happen and it's a part of me. To this day I'll never really know why that urge came to be to look up transgender on YouTube, but I'm very thankful I did because I would've never known.

This sounds so similar to what I'm going through right now. Thank you so much.

Hey, thank you so much for telling us how you found out about being transgender. I'm also 23 now, soon to be 24, and since recently the signs have become clearer and clearer that I am MtF. In my case though, I have been aware I've had some sort of gender issues since early childhood, but I never found the courage to put the bits and pieces together out of fear. I was downright beaten into my supposed role by my mother.

I fucking love your videos,  I'm 18 and questioning whether I'm trans and your videos are so great and so helpful. My mum asked me recently "why do you have to wear guys clothing" it really hurt my feelings

Its like you're telling my story. Pretty simular childhood except the fact that I had some responsibilities as a "girl" , babysitting younger siblings and help cleaning at home. I first found out I was transgender when I was 26 even though I have been living my whole life without defining myself as any gender and looking and acting like a boy. I've known it all my life without knowing it. Strange.

this really resonates with me. I kind of grew up the same way, where gender wasn't even really a thing at all, and I just could do what I wanted, it wasn't so separate as "boy" things and "girl" things, and now I'm understanding myself and I'm now identifying as trans, FtM, and I'm working on coming out but it's really difficult to explain, because I can barely understand myself enough to put it in words. you're really inspiring to me though, and I feel like I can relate to you much more than other transmen that I'm inspired by. you're amazing. This video is fantastic. 

This video is like watching a video of myself. Your story is almost the same as mine ;~; Thank you Aydian for helping me realize that I am trans, I aspire to be just like you after my transition :3

I just stumbled upon this video. It has made me feel so much better that I am not the only one who didn't really know about the trans community. I came to my mom when I was 10 because she asked me straight out if I liked girls. And I was like and then it was just kinda like okay I'm a butch lesbian. After discovering trans watching videos on YouTube has helped me a lot to discover why I always felt like something was missing. So thanks for posting this video and contributing to helping...

It's so crazy you say what you do in this video because I discovered pretty much the same way but at 30.. wish i found out sooner but better late than never! Thanks for sharing your videos :)

Alot of this reminded me of myself. I remember having my little pink bike but I'd always use my brothers red mongoose instead. (I still do.) It helped to know I'm not the only one that was clueless about being trans at first.

This was perfect. Exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you.

That's exactly how it was for me too man. I didn't know until I was in college. And I started transition at 23. I'll be a year on T come August.

Just bought some shirt from you! Love them and thanks for providing a way to feel proud while in stealth.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you! I began watching one video and then from there , your video, this video was suggested. Thank you for being transparent and sharing your story.